Have Your Way - Britt Nicole

Feels like i`ve been here forever,
Why can`t you just intervene?
Do you see the tears keep falling?
And i`m falling apart at the seams.
But you never said the road would be easy,
But you said that you would never leave.
And you never promised that this life wasn`t hard,
But you promised you`d take care of me.

So I`ll stop searching for the answers,
I`ll stop praying for an escape,
And I`ll trust you,God, with where i am,
And believe that you will have your way.
Just have your way.
Just have your way.

When my friends and my family have left me,
And I feel so ashamed and so cold.
Remind me that you take broken things
And turn them into beautiful.

So I`ll stop searching for the answers,
I`ll stop praying for an escape,
And i`ll trust you, God, with where i am,
And believe that you`ll have your way.
Just have your way.
Just have your way.

Even if my dreams have died,
And even if i don`t survive,
I`ll still worship you with all my life.
My life.
Whoa-oh..

And I`ll stop searching for the answers,
I`ll stop praying for an escape,
And i`ll trust you, God, with where i am,
And believe that you will have your way.
Just have your way.
Just have your way.

I know you will.
I won`t forget.
Whoa-oh
You love me.
Have your way.
Yeah 

Saying "NO!" to Self Pity, Saying "THANKS!" to God

Reality kicked in quickly today.  Making a decision does not suddenly make things easy.

Temptations and confrontations often accompany a decision.  This means that when you make a decision, you need to be willing to stick with it no matter what uncomfortable situation or unenjoyable situation arises.

This concept has always been a difficult one for me.  I feel so strong in my faith and connected with God when I choose to do the right thing, but as soon as I make that decision I am soon discouraged by the difficulty that still rests in the situation.  Difficulty may come from the people around you or from the temptation to change your decision.  These difficulties almost always cause me to feel alone.  Not only do I feel that no one in the world has been in my situation before, but I also feel that no one recognizes me.  I feel like no one sees that I try to do the right thing or that no one sees what I've been through, so i dwell in self pity.  Because I have become a professional at this, I have realized that this feeling and concentration of self pity gets me nowhere.  Wallowing in my self pity is not only uncalled for, but also it only makes matters worse.

My focus on being alone is completely uncalled for because I am never alone.  The Bible says that,

"The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." (Deuteronomy 31:8)  

It is pointless to feel alone, because God is always with me, and He loves and understands me.  I know this because He died for me.  He was willing to be uncomfortable, broken hearted, hated, accused unjustly...He was willing to die for me, and He did NOT feel sorry for Himself.  He willingly and gladly did that for me.  I have been blessed beyond imagination.

And if that wasn't enough!  God has placed me in a loving and caring family, given me some amazing friends, and placed me at a school where He is the focus.  He has given me more than enough food for each day (enough for the freshman 15), a sizable room to live in, a warm bed to sleep in, and a closet full of clothes.  For me to feel sorry for myself, is to say that I am not content with what God has given me.  It is to say that not only am I unsatisfied with all of these blessings, but that I am unsatisfied with God.  Clearly something that I need to work on.

I need to choose to put away my self pity and instead focus on Christ.  I can find joy in each situation, because of God's infinite blessings.  By constantly thanking and praising God, He can help me to conquer my self pity in these everyday situations and learn to depend fully on Him.  Refusing to find temporary satisfaction in self pity is only one small step to finding satisfaction in God.

The Start of Something New... (dare to be cheesy)

Well, I must admit it will be quite difficult for anyone to understand my life or where I come from.  I do hope that someone besides just me will benefit from this blog.  I was inspired by my best friend (http://rmk-shine.blogspot.com/) to do this.  I love her :)

I intend to use this a blog in order to: keep me accountable, keep me from making stupid decisions, and help me to find my satisfaction in Christ.  As stated in my About Me, I have difficulty controlling my emotions and feelings.  After being involved in many relationships, I have found myself to be dependent on people.  I depend on boyfriends.  I depend on best friends.  More than i depend on God.  Anyone see the problem?

Throughout my life, I have realized more and more that people will fail you.  Just as I fail my family and my best friends, they will fail me.  But God will not fail me.  You'd think that realizing that would automatically cause me to depend fully on Him, but it doesn't.  I still struggle.  Constantly.  I often find myself at Kings Island.  (Geez, I wish.)  Okay, what I mean is, I am on a constant roller coaster.  Not only with my emotions, but also in my walk with God.

I have not fully recovered from my last plummet (note: the roller coaster metaphor) and am beginning to make very dumb decisions.  This is me saying no.  I refuse to forsake the values that I believe in, hurt the people that I love, and ignore God.  This blog is the start of something new: saying no to things that will temporarily satisfy me and saying yes to God.