Well, I must admit it will be quite difficult for anyone to understand my life or where I come from. I do hope that someone besides just me will benefit from this blog. I was inspired by my best friend (http://rmk-shine.blogspot.com/) to do this. I love her :)
I intend to use this a blog in order to: keep me accountable, keep me from making stupid decisions, and help me to find my satisfaction in Christ. As stated in my About Me, I have difficulty controlling my emotions and feelings. After being involved in many relationships, I have found myself to be dependent on people. I depend on boyfriends. I depend on best friends. More than i depend on God. Anyone see the problem?
Throughout my life, I have realized more and more that people will fail you. Just as I fail my family and my best friends, they will fail me. But God will not fail me. You'd think that realizing that would automatically cause me to depend fully on Him, but it doesn't. I still struggle. Constantly. I often find myself at Kings Island. (Geez, I wish.) Okay, what I mean is, I am on a constant roller coaster. Not only with my emotions, but also in my walk with God.
I have not fully recovered from my last plummet (note: the roller coaster metaphor) and am beginning to make very dumb decisions. This is me saying no. I refuse to forsake the values that I believe in, hurt the people that I love, and ignore God. This blog is the start of something new: saying no to things that will temporarily satisfy me and saying yes to God.
So encouraging, best friend. Definitely helped me put things back in perspective and realize what I should be focused on. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteps, thanks for the shoutout!