Thursday, August 2, 2012

Anger Management

Hello readers. I would like to write today about an issue that I had not experienced until recently and why it doesn't make sense. The issue is being angry at God.

This summer, I have really been trying to seek God out with my whole heart (Psalm 119:10). As soon as I feel like I am back where I want to be (completely in awe of Christ and ready to make changes in my life for him), something bad happens. When I say something bad happens, I don't mean that I got run over by a car or didn't have any meals that day. I mean that I got in a fight with someone or felt misunderstood (pathetic, I know). At that point, I let my feelings take over and I get angry with God. I begin feeling hopeless and depressed because of something so small, and I fail to trust God. Then, I would rather hold a grudge against God, then admit that I am wrong and ask for forgiveness. As I talk through this issue I have, I recognize that I had not even confessed this sin until now. I am in awe of my ridiculousness and God's grace. Thank God for forgiveness and second chances.

There is no reason to be angry at God. He knows so much better than I do, and he has blessed me more than I can imagine. To get upset with him and hold a grudge against me only shows my immaturity and trust issues. As I learn to trust God more and more and to truly seek him with my whole heart, I will learn to choose joy and thankfulness over anger and displeasure.

After several setbacks like these, I am moving forward and working to trust God with the trials and temptations that Satan will send my way.

Lord, teach me to trust.
Teach me to be thankful.
Make me more like you.

1 comment:

  1. good stuff! awesome to see you moving forward and working on trusting God with any trials that you might face

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