To Love Others

As I've approached the middle of my fast, I've realized something.  I found it odd that we talked about love in chapel again.  Last Wednesday I learned about being a witness to others by loving them.  Then, on Saturday I learned about loving non-Christians as humans made in God's image.  Then, in chapel yesterday we read through a little bit of the Beatitudes (Matthew 5:38-48).  This not only talked about how we are called to "turn the other cheek," but also the section about loving our enemies.  love love love.

Throughout my life, I have had difficulty with love.  Yes, I love my family.  But sometimes I even struggle to love my close friends.  This is because of a huge pride problem that I have.  I seek to be superior to others many times, and I hate to feel in any way inferior to others.  This is so wrong.  Its a subconscious thing that I really need to work on.  What could be a better way to work on this than by focusing on loving others rather than myself??  I mean at the rate I'm going with all of this pride nonsense, I'm not sure if people would even know I was a Christian by my actions toward them.  This certainly needs to change.

So as I was sitting in chapel yesterday, it hit me!   Could this be "where God wants me"?  Could this be "my next step"?  (21 Days)

A while ago, Nancy Gruendyke came and spoke to the girls of third center about being single.  She talked about this time as a time of opportunity.  When I first heard her say that I honestly think that I laughed out loud.  For me, it was difficult to see really anything good about being single.  But she was right!  As I am spending time without a boyfriend or husband, I can invest in others!  I can spend my time serving my close friends, my BASSYCS girls, really anyone!

Since I know that God wants me to be single right now, could this be the specific focus that God wants me to have?  To spend my time, my prayer, my energy, loving others?  I really think that this is what He is calling me to do.

As I begin my second half of my fast, I am praying that God would make clear to me specifically who he wants me to focus my love on, if there is someone.  I am praying that He would make my heart genuine and give me a longing to glorify Him by the way that I can love others.

Don't get me wrong, I believe that in many instances it will be difficult for me to love others, but I'm ready! I'm ready to do what God is calling me to do, and I'm ready to give everything that I can to it!

Lord, may your will be done.